英语翻译

英语翻译
It is the first time I have such a desire to write a diary in English.
I wonder if there is something that really matters to explain that why I have decided to think of such things.Maybe it just unworthy.To me,it really makes a difference.
Again,I can't fall asleep.No Why!Because I don't know neither.It so happened that I was being trapped by myself,my thinking pattern,exactly,Things were gone,but they still stuck in my mind.Apparently,no why,for I haven't figured it out.
Things become more complicated and I can't help crying.Yes,that was true.Unfortunately,I have nowhere to let out my emotion.Neither can I.Thus,I stopped,at the midnight.
When everything keeps going,I can not help thinking "what if " and "if only".Fine.Forget it may be the best choice.
Eventually,I found it meaningless to do such sillly things.Now,I am right,but it is so wierd,and I still do not know why.
Ok,I just try.Try to accept what is unacceptable.Try to be indifferent.Try to try