一篇英语作文 （对比五年前的我与现在的我,并畅想将来的我）如题,100字左右

Simple my way of growing up never hurt anyone, but suddenly look back,but I always a person, so accustomed to a person. Do not love to talk, alsodon't speak. For one thing also did not understand, do not say to give aresult. Sarcastic, gossip, complaining, I am unwilling to say, leaving only a few simple words, and you are the didn't like listening. Slowly, I began tolearn to camouflage, camouflage happy, began his secret. Gradually found,not I do not want to close to you, but I think you will too deep contact is very tired, very tired. I want to live a simple life, a simple friendship, a free life,happy, but in your room, always mutually exclusive, an invisible rejection,gives me a strange feeling. And you get along for a long time, but time did not resolve all of this, we become more strange. And you keep thisdistance, because I don't want to hurt anyone, even a little bit. It is not what I want.
I am a kind of person? I asked many people, but no one answer, can not say, this is not a good answer. I, is not immutable and frozen, with somethings and change. But this still me, just grow up. I hope he is a brave,strong, kind. I don't have confidence and sense of security too much,because feel not too many advantages, not what can make you proud. The beginning of the beginning, I will be unconditional trust all eyes and vocabulary, along with the time, I will see, will be selected, choose thiswhether can continue. Did a test, the test result is this: you give people theimpression of independent, free, live very cool, very cheerful personality,the relations between people are treated fairly well. But the real you is veryafraid of loneliness, you want to be loved, be taken seriously, so just sopainstakingly runs everything, but this became the heart burden, let you feel very tired. In fact, gain and loss flower briefly as the broad-leaved epiphyllum, not as good as the real free and easy. May really should put down everything, had a free and easy.
I am not good at things is waiting, alone and lonely, with a test of endurance. But every day, I have been doing my best to not good at things.Waiting for happiness, waiting for the emergence of moment of movingair...... Waiting for...... Some people have been im*ed in the same place, while others continue to choose to leave, I have been on the road,waiting to happen......
No matter happy, no sorrow......
In the future, I will be a person how?! I would imagine, several fragments,short imagination. Imagine it is imaginary, I will live each day, happy to grow,be responsible for your own life, no longer dependent on others to take care of, no longer drifted through the day, take the initiative to greet others,remember those individuals......
Whether happy or not, have to smile...... I will be very hard, very hard......

my past,now and futureThe memory of my past always makes me feel sad,because I was not good at wrting in English before.When I had a writing homework ,I always became nervous and my mind was blank all...