i'am was so not obedient,so self willed,belatedly found,in fact,my heart is sore.

你确定你这个没打错?乱七八糟.i'am was so not obedient, so self willed, belatedly found, in fact, my heart is sore.你学过英语没有啊？语法错误很严重。但大致的意思可能是:我并不是不服从、自我、迟钝。事实上，我的心很痛。