out of control什么意思

out of control什么意思
i hate that everything is out of my control.it happens as it was so right.i was cheated by u two.forgive sounds good,but forget i think i never could.u two totally have no idea that how much i want to forgive u.and how much i miss u.but...when u destroyed the trust,u destroyed everything including my life.i don't know who to trust now.we three had so much sweet memory.and i have to learn to forget them all.now,i try to hide the hurt.just move on.when something is wrong,i always told myself that everything would be all right.and i could handle everythig,cause that was me,that was my life.