一篇英语作文 题目是你会怎样进入20岁,用你的想象力写一篇短文吧

Regardless of the obstacles i might have to face,I am going to be twenty years old in the next couple days.Thinking back in time,I have missed many things through out the last nineteen years of my life.However,I felt regret of not being able to attend my grandmother's funeral due to many factors.Ever since my grandmother passing away,I have lost my consciences and dignity,and the pain that I will never find a way to recover.I often question myself about many things,including questions about the death and sadness.Before the death of my grandmother,I never had thought about what is it feel like to lose someone that I've loved.Maybe it is never a question for me because I was such a fool.
It was a few days before the Chinese Moon Cake Festival.It struck me when I picked up the phone to hear that my grandmother was in a coma when I was paying attention to the TV screen from the other side of the world.I was stuck for a second,and thought everything was going to be alright.I was deceiving myself for such a mistake,for not knowing the consequences of it.
Later that night,I wake up to the wail.I do not feel the strength within me is adequate to sustain me for finishing this last part.
I will never be able to talk to my grandmother again my life again.
At this moment,I still felt my guilt of missing her funeral because I was afraid to ask my parents to allow me for it.I was hopeless,and not even the saddest word in the world could be used to describe me for being such a crying baby.Regardless of the countless drops of tears dripping off my eyes,it was never enough to repay those that years my grandmothers spent on taking care of me from the day I was born until the date I left for the United States.I am proud of her for the sacrifice of her time in nourishing me.She will always be in my heart.